A Single Southern Guy in America

July 24, 2003

Funk

I’m not real sure what’s wrong with me today. I’m in a funk. A general malaise. I may have a fever. I did not sleep well last night and I was up at 5 a.m.

I want to write something witty and inspiring, but nothing comes. I’m not exactly certain what changes are happening and have happened for Vicky and Matt, but I think I know how they feel.

I need a break. I’ve been working everyday, including Saturdays and Sundays since Memorial Day with one sick day. I need stimulation, rest, and something else and I’m not sure what that something is. On one hand I need a major change, but on the other, I don’t want to feel like I’m running from something or acquiescing to it.

A man is not an island and I feel like I’m not even an island. More like a cramped lifeboat, adrift in a vast ocean. Some of the best writers were supposed to be extremely depraved. Maybe I’m falling into that model. Hemingway took his own life, Poe was an opium addict. I’m not sure what my crutch is, but it is bearing on me now.

I had a bad day yesterday, but this cuts deeper. The funk that you put yourself in is always the most difficult to overcome. It’s what I’m in and I’ve got to get out. I’ve heard some people write as therapy. I suppose that’s what this piece is about. Perhaps I can flush some of this funk out by articulating it.

I hope so anyways.

Posted by Adam H at July 24, 2003 09:41 AM ~ Link Cosmos | Trackbacks (0)

Comments

Hope you get better soon. Sounds like you need to refuel...

Posted by: Marci at July 24, 2003 10:23 AM

You need a NICE vacation. Go somewhere you have always wanted to go, but never got the chance. Hmmm, ok, maybe that is what I need or want....but it sounds good doesn't it?

Anyways - I hope you get better soon... sounds like you are just a little drained with no time to yourself. Let me know if I can do anything.

Posted by: h at July 24, 2003 11:03 AM

I got an idea Holly, how about you send me on an all expense paid trip to the Bahamas for a few days? ; )

Thanks y'all, we all get the funks every now and then. I'll be fine.

Posted by: Adam at July 25, 2003 09:00 AM

Adam, I have even a better idea.... why don't I go along..... :)

Posted by: h at July 25, 2003 09:59 AM